Stuck

Honestly, I still can't sleep. Just when my body finally started to feel so tired, my brain sabotaged it and successfully prevented myself from falling asleep.

Because I just hate what is going on my mind right now.

I can't still say anything about it. I hate it when I have just typed a very long sentence and just end up deleting everything - just like now. There are so many things that I want to say..so many stories that I want to put an end to, but I can't say anything. I can't do anything. Those stupid things have to be better left unsaid because if I will let them be released too easily in this world, I might end up regretting my existence for a few minutes..then I will just walk away as soon as I recover - just like before. Walking away has been a very common solution when things aren't just happening the way you want them to, though it really feels so bad.

..but I don't wanna walk away anymore. I should find a way.